I have been struggling at work for a while. The work morale is still very low. We even had our annual picnic in a park near the job. Nope I did not go. I stayed at work and it was very peaceful. I like my job but the politics associated with it is very frustrating. Can I just come to work and do my job without dealing with a whole lot of BS?? Clearly that is just too much to ask for.
Anyhow... I have been a little drained lately. I guess taking some time off is really LONG overdue. So I will be off the first part of the week. I have been dragging so bad that I have not been going to see Felix as much as I have been plus it has been raining cats and dogs here in the "A". I have Felix at a very nice farm. They take very good of my boy. For example, Felix lost a shoe and they called the farrier to put it back on and I got a call from both the farm manager and the farrier with updates.
In the past, I have only allowed my trainers to ride Felix. Every blue moon somebody else would ride for me. Since I have not been going out as often, my trainer would ride him for me. She told me that she had allowed a student to ride him. Felix spooked at a buzzard and the girl fell off. My first instinct was you did not ask me before allowing her to ride. But I really wanted to let the girl to ride him at least one more time after coming off. In a way I do not want to be selfish with Felix. I remember people allowing me to ride their horses. I have decided I am NOT ready for that. I like being the one who rides him the most. I like being in tune with him. I definitely do not want anyone jumping him but me and my trainer. If something happens to him that is my vet bill. I like to know if he acts up about something, I like to know why or that it was MY fault. So tomorrow I will be telling the trainer that after re thinking, I don't want anyone else riding Felix but her and that I want to be the one to jump him. I am really possessive and selfish with him. I thought I could loosen up a little bit but guess not. HIS IS MINE!! :)
This week I will put up a few post.